Bad day -- reframing

I had the best intentions this morning!  I had a good fruit breakfast with some protein, and was prepared for a heavier lunch since I knew I was going to Kingfish Hall (one of Todd English's restaurants) and ordering the grilled lobster and fontina sandwich (the reason I picked it). That would've all been fine (I only ate half of the lobster sandwich even!) but I really didn't need to grab quite as much bread early AND to also eat an ice cream AND a bag of chocolate when I wasn't even hungry. Ugh. My stomach actually feels awful right now.

I've been watching the scale creep up ounces at a time every morning. I need to stop this nonsense. My knee is not 100% better yet so I can't go crazy with the exercise, nor should I really, I can't burn enough calories to make up for what I've been eating! I need to go back to the eating in moderation (no need to finish 1/2 pint of Ben and Jerry's ice cream in one day like I did yesterday -- it doesn't matter that it was the "light" version!).

Tonight we're going out again, a 5-hour event where we will be playing "Guitar Hero" at a bar with free food and drinks flowing. I have no need to eat, since I've already gotten all of my calories for the day and then some. I don't want to make this impossible on myself, so if I'm hungry, I will eat something, but only if I'm actually hungry. However, as for drinking, I will be chugging the sparkling water / soda water and lime, which looks like an alcoholic drink but isn't. I may have one drink if I really want it, but it won't be when I first get there, or it will make it more likely that I'll just continue drinking.

I can do this, I really can. I've done this, I've lost 50 pounds. I can keep them off and keep losing. And doing it wasn't even that bad! Just a tiny bit more self-control. I never felt that deprived while I was losing. I can do that again. I need to believe that again.