Done being annoyed at myself

I've been dilly-dallying with the same 5 pounds for over a year now. The good news is: I've never gotten higher than 142 (starting weight: 189 back in Nov. '06). The bad news is, the lowest I've gotten is 136.5.

My 2-year anniversary on WW is coming up in a month and I have to face the music -- I'm probably going to be at exactly the same weight I was 1 year ago.

I've been annoyed with myself for this entire year for that very reason. But I've been wasting my time being annoyed. It hasn't helped me accomplish anything (and it certainly hasn't helped me get to goal!). So I'm going to stop being annoyed *today*.

I'm going to stop feeling bad about the fact that I haven't been able to maintain a loss in one year, and stop using that as an excuse. I have to remember the fact that if I don't count points, I just don't lose consistently. So that's it. It's back to basics. It's back to planning and exercising more consistently. It's the only way, and I know it works.

I'm here, I'm here

I've been AWOL. From the blog and from my own weight watching. I saw 143 one day two weeks ago. I went back to my meeting immediately and weighed in at 142.2. Then I got sick and skipped a meeting. I still haven't counted points all this time, but my eating has gotten a lot more under control. I've been packing snacks to come with me and I"ve been refusing extra bad food offered to me. Not 100% there yet, but piece by piece.

The bad thing is, I have barely exercised in all this time. I started an exercise program, then sprained my finger and couldn't lift weights (I still can't), then got sick for days and haven't done cardio. I'm on the up and up on that, so tomorrow will be my first day back to actually exercising.